To everyone that post comments... Happy Halloween! Thanks for posting all your comments are a really treat! Today is Halloween and I don't feel like posting much today so here are some mini personal post for everyone that leaves me a comment:
Julie, I can't believe that my post means so much to you, I'm curious know, are you a nerd or do you have a thing for nerds as I do? I only know one Julie but you can't be her, she doesn't know anything about my blog.
Jordan, just in case you didn't read the comments, my friend Jose Luis was around me when I last posted and he added that part about the "engineering buffs."
Sam, sorry if my friend got your hopes up for nothing, and what do you mean when you say you'll make your move?
Sumo, where have you been? You haven't been keeping up with my post, why? I'll probably talk to you later tonight.
Jose Luis, you really crack me up with your comments so thanks a lot I really enjoy them all.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Returning from my Blog Vacation
I was just thinking, "man it's seems like a long time since my last blog", and I was right. I have fallen way behind. At first the intent for this blog was to post everyday except on the weekends but I feel like I have so much that I have posted about. Now it seems like I was on vacation from my blog. :) LOL! That's funny, a vacation from blogging... Blogging is like a vacation from everyday life.
I'm not even sure how to post about all those days without a post... Hummmmmmmmmm... although... by not posting a new blog I did receive more messages for "The Dictionary Problem," which I enjoyed getting so much feed back [Hint, Hint= please post comments people! Even if you don't know me, that's how I met Sam.] Oh well, I still have no idea if I really was over reacting or not, I'm sort of over it now. I'm just glad that I didn't wear my India shirt who knows what would have been assumed than :[ Moving on...
Well just in case anyone's wondering, things with Jordan are still going really well (Jordan: 3November ;) ) despite our few minor set backs. I'm just wondering when we'll get to see each other again. (sigh) I still really miss Jordan and I hope that it won't be another year and a half. Well I guess we'll just have to be patient and just wait and see. :D
I'm not even sure how to post about all those days without a post... Hummmmmmmmmm... although... by not posting a new blog I did receive more messages for "The Dictionary Problem," which I enjoyed getting so much feed back [Hint, Hint= please post comments people! Even if you don't know me, that's how I met Sam.] Oh well, I still have no idea if I really was over reacting or not, I'm sort of over it now. I'm just glad that I didn't wear my India shirt who knows what would have been assumed than :[ Moving on...
Well just in case anyone's wondering, things with Jordan are still going really well (Jordan: 3November ;) ) despite our few minor set backs. I'm just wondering when we'll get to see each other again. (sigh) I still really miss Jordan and I hope that it won't be another year and a half. Well I guess we'll just have to be patient and just wait and see. :D
Thursday, October 25, 2007
The Dictionary Problem!
I feel like I really need to bring this out or it’s going to continue to drive me crazy until I do.
I talked to my friend Jose Luis yesterday about something Jordan told me that really bothered me. Ok, when Jordan was here I gave him an Arabic dictionary (we use references based on what I learned while taking the class) anyways, he told me that his grandmother didn’t like that I gave him the dictionary. Apparently she has a problem with me learn Arabic and she thinks that I’m learning it for the wrong reasons, terrorists reasons (which I’m not) It didn’t even dawn on me until later on (in which I still had no idea about the dictionary problem until Jordan told me) On the last night I saw Jordan we ordered pizza to the hotel room, I don’t eat any pork so I was just picking off the pepperonis, ham, ect…(meat lovers pizza-enough said) well it seemed a little suspicious to me that she questioned me almost immediately, “ Sarah, do you go to church?” I told her yes and then she asked where, I told her the name of the church and then translated the name to English; but that wasn’t what she wanted to know she then asked what kind of a church it was, when I told her Christian she just dropped the subject.
Come on for those that don’t know me I don’t like when people question things like that without asking directly or stating the purpose of their questioning. To me what she did was another way of being racist, I don’t like when people are racist there’s no point to it.
Jordan: I’m sorry Jordan cause I know your going to read this and get maybe a little upset, please just don’t your grandmother about this, I pretty sure she already doesn’t like me and you pretty much acknowledged it the night you returned home.
This was really bothering me (still is) ever since you first told me but I felt like I really needed to express it now. Well, Jose didn’t know what to say on the matter except making a joke about my potential of looking like a Muslim if I were to put a head dress on. (I don’t really look Muslim- (since we must address a race for everything, I’m Hispanic people!!!) Well he did say that may she’s just trying to find reasons not to like which still wouldn’t make any sense at all. Maybe she really just doesn’t like me for some reason.
Later on I spoke to Sumo about it (no he’s not big, it’s just an inside joke that very few know about, he calls me Sumo as well-I’m “Sumo1” he’s “Sumo2”) He thought it was a bit odd for her to assume so quickly and agreed with Jose (about her maybe not liking me, not the head dress thing) Well talk for a while and it really did help me out a lot, thanks Jose and Sumo! Especially Sumo, your little comment made me feel a little better about myself and it made me laugh how I tricked you into telling me (LOL!) for future reference: tape recorder :)
To all that read this: please post your opinion (even Jordan, Sumo, and Jose Luis) Am I giving too much thought to this?
Oh well... I feel better now so I'll be signing off for now.
I talked to my friend Jose Luis yesterday about something Jordan told me that really bothered me. Ok, when Jordan was here I gave him an Arabic dictionary (we use references based on what I learned while taking the class) anyways, he told me that his grandmother didn’t like that I gave him the dictionary. Apparently she has a problem with me learn Arabic and she thinks that I’m learning it for the wrong reasons, terrorists reasons (which I’m not) It didn’t even dawn on me until later on (in which I still had no idea about the dictionary problem until Jordan told me) On the last night I saw Jordan we ordered pizza to the hotel room, I don’t eat any pork so I was just picking off the pepperonis, ham, ect…(meat lovers pizza-enough said) well it seemed a little suspicious to me that she questioned me almost immediately, “ Sarah, do you go to church?” I told her yes and then she asked where, I told her the name of the church and then translated the name to English; but that wasn’t what she wanted to know she then asked what kind of a church it was, when I told her Christian she just dropped the subject.
Come on for those that don’t know me I don’t like when people question things like that without asking directly or stating the purpose of their questioning. To me what she did was another way of being racist, I don’t like when people are racist there’s no point to it.
Jordan: I’m sorry Jordan cause I know your going to read this and get maybe a little upset, please just don’t your grandmother about this, I pretty sure she already doesn’t like me and you pretty much acknowledged it the night you returned home.
This was really bothering me (still is) ever since you first told me but I felt like I really needed to express it now. Well, Jose didn’t know what to say on the matter except making a joke about my potential of looking like a Muslim if I were to put a head dress on. (I don’t really look Muslim- (since we must address a race for everything, I’m Hispanic people!!!) Well he did say that may she’s just trying to find reasons not to like which still wouldn’t make any sense at all. Maybe she really just doesn’t like me for some reason.
Later on I spoke to Sumo about it (no he’s not big, it’s just an inside joke that very few know about, he calls me Sumo as well-I’m “Sumo1” he’s “Sumo2”) He thought it was a bit odd for her to assume so quickly and agreed with Jose (about her maybe not liking me, not the head dress thing) Well talk for a while and it really did help me out a lot, thanks Jose and Sumo! Especially Sumo, your little comment made me feel a little better about myself and it made me laugh how I tricked you into telling me (LOL!) for future reference: tape recorder :)
To all that read this: please post your opinion (even Jordan, Sumo, and Jose Luis) Am I giving too much thought to this?
Oh well... I feel better now so I'll be signing off for now.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Moving on with Life :)
I'm feeling better for those that show concern, thanks. :)
I was in my philosophy class and it came to me with every word the professor said, we have a choice of what to belief and how to deal with that belief, also after my class I spoke to my friend Jose Luis and it really helped have someone else to talk to.
As for my belief: I was in the state of mind that I thought everything would be hopeless without Jordan around, I mean I tried to think positive but I would shoot down my own optimistic thoughts. I feel a little bad for saying this, but... I kind was hoping(before fall break) that when Jordan and I would meet up again, that things wouldn't go as great as they did so that I could move on and finally get on with my life not worrying about my feelings for Jordan. Obviously that is no longer the question on my mind.
The only thing that really concerns me now(as it always has) is how are things going to turn out in the long run? How are we going to make this work? I know one thing for sure though, I really want to answer that question, I'm not sure how long it will take, but I want to be able to post in future a success story. (and hopefully I will someday)
Sam: Thank you for finally come to your senses. I would love to have you continue to keep in contact through blogs. I can't wait to see your new blog, let me know when you finally have it ready!
I love you Jordan! 394! I really miss you, but I'm ok now :)
I was in my philosophy class and it came to me with every word the professor said, we have a choice of what to belief and how to deal with that belief, also after my class I spoke to my friend Jose Luis and it really helped have someone else to talk to.
As for my belief: I was in the state of mind that I thought everything would be hopeless without Jordan around, I mean I tried to think positive but I would shoot down my own optimistic thoughts. I feel a little bad for saying this, but... I kind was hoping(before fall break) that when Jordan and I would meet up again, that things wouldn't go as great as they did so that I could move on and finally get on with my life not worrying about my feelings for Jordan. Obviously that is no longer the question on my mind.
The only thing that really concerns me now(as it always has) is how are things going to turn out in the long run? How are we going to make this work? I know one thing for sure though, I really want to answer that question, I'm not sure how long it will take, but I want to be able to post in future a success story. (and hopefully I will someday)
Sam: Thank you for finally come to your senses. I would love to have you continue to keep in contact through blogs. I can't wait to see your new blog, let me know when you finally have it ready!
I love you Jordan! 394! I really miss you, but I'm ok now :)
Monday, October 22, 2007
Fall break and heartache
I just had my fall break(Thursday & Friday) Jordan’s family came down to San Antonio and left early Sunday morning. I can’t believe the fun that we had (Jordan and I) We spent most of the time down on the Riverwalk and at Rivercenter Mall. I felt so comfortable with Jordan, more than I ever did being with “R” which was weird for me. I was with “R” for almost 4years and never really wanted him to hold my hand or me in public but it was different with Jordan, I loved it when he would hold my hand or when we would walk with his arm around me. (this may seem a little weird but…) I always thought that you can be sure if you’re with the right person by the touch of their hand.
Yesterday was the first day without Jordan and it was like hell because I knew that he was gone. I went to church and I couldn’t focus on the sermon and barely on my kids class, I just wanted to break down and cry but I knew that everyone would have wanted to know and I’m not sure who I can talk to besides Jordan. (after all he’s kind of going through the same thing as me) By talking to him I wonder if I’m taking this harder than him… He seems sad but I’ve been crying off and on whenever I get the chance and the rest of the time I’m trying as hard as I can to fight back the tears and focus on what’s going on around me.
I have so many reminders of Jordan now more than ever and I don’t know how long I can stand it. The last night I was with Jordan, my mom wanted me to get something to eat with her and my sister, I didn’t want to eat anything so she bought me a milkshake (I know this is stupid) when she gave me the shake there was a cherry on top and I felt tears in my eyes began to form as they are now, earlier that day we all went out to eat and Jordan had a milkshake with a cherry on top, he didn’t want it so he gave it to me and I saved the cherry stem.
Then yesterday I was with my little sister at the Halloween store and I guess I forgot I was with her, it was crowded in there and when she fell behind I was still thinking I was with Jordan so I reached my hand back and I turned around looking for him when he didn’t reach back. When I realized what was going on and that Jordan wasn’t there, I wanted to just break down and cry. I guess there’s no way to escape the memories but let time take it’s course, sooner or later things will get better.
I wonder why things are so different..? I miss him so much. I missed him before he even left because I’m not sure when we’ll see each other again. L Just the thought of him leaving was lingering in my mind the whole time we were together but I just didn’t want to bring us down while he was here. On our last day (Saturday) together we sat in the stair well at the hotel were he was staying and we started crying together because I didn’t want him to leave nor did he.
It’s just so hard for me to focus now I want to just go in a corner or somewhere alone and cry until I can’t anymore, and that’s because I already cried myself to sleep the past two nights, I wake up crying for Jordan, and all day I’m forced to hold back the tears.
Yesterday was the first day without Jordan and it was like hell because I knew that he was gone. I went to church and I couldn’t focus on the sermon and barely on my kids class, I just wanted to break down and cry but I knew that everyone would have wanted to know and I’m not sure who I can talk to besides Jordan. (after all he’s kind of going through the same thing as me) By talking to him I wonder if I’m taking this harder than him… He seems sad but I’ve been crying off and on whenever I get the chance and the rest of the time I’m trying as hard as I can to fight back the tears and focus on what’s going on around me.
I have so many reminders of Jordan now more than ever and I don’t know how long I can stand it. The last night I was with Jordan, my mom wanted me to get something to eat with her and my sister, I didn’t want to eat anything so she bought me a milkshake (I know this is stupid) when she gave me the shake there was a cherry on top and I felt tears in my eyes began to form as they are now, earlier that day we all went out to eat and Jordan had a milkshake with a cherry on top, he didn’t want it so he gave it to me and I saved the cherry stem.
Then yesterday I was with my little sister at the Halloween store and I guess I forgot I was with her, it was crowded in there and when she fell behind I was still thinking I was with Jordan so I reached my hand back and I turned around looking for him when he didn’t reach back. When I realized what was going on and that Jordan wasn’t there, I wanted to just break down and cry. I guess there’s no way to escape the memories but let time take it’s course, sooner or later things will get better.
I wonder why things are so different..? I miss him so much. I missed him before he even left because I’m not sure when we’ll see each other again. L Just the thought of him leaving was lingering in my mind the whole time we were together but I just didn’t want to bring us down while he was here. On our last day (Saturday) together we sat in the stair well at the hotel were he was staying and we started crying together because I didn’t want him to leave nor did he.
It’s just so hard for me to focus now I want to just go in a corner or somewhere alone and cry until I can’t anymore, and that’s because I already cried myself to sleep the past two nights, I wake up crying for Jordan, and all day I’m forced to hold back the tears.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Coffee Withdraw
I sort of have a headache right now probably because I haven't eaten lunch yet and this morning I had a "Breakfast" drink that's suppose to be as good as eating an actual breakfast (it was my mom's idea) I myself felt like I could have probably had that plus a normal breakfast. Oh yah, not only have I not eaten, I had NO coffee in the morning. Humm... I wonder if I became dependent on it and am now suffering from a withdraw..? (I should have just gotten at least one cup, it was there)
1 day left for Jordan's arrival, yay! I'm so excited and scared at the same time, what if things aren't as we suspect them to be? What if we arugue overr something stupid and the whole break is then ruined? Awwww... just as I want this to work out...what if it doesn't? Then what? I guess we'll just have to see what happens when he's here.
1 day left for Jordan's arrival, yay! I'm so excited and scared at the same time, what if things aren't as we suspect them to be? What if we arugue overr something stupid and the whole break is then ruined? Awwww... just as I want this to work out...what if it doesn't? Then what? I guess we'll just have to see what happens when he's here.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Puzzed & Frustrated
Hummm... I'm feeling puzzled today about the robotics meeting on Friday, I didn't go and I'm trying to find out which of my friends went. So far no luck, all my friends I asks yesterday and today said that they didn't go so I'm now wondering who did go? Even "J" one of the main members wasn't present... weird. What was up with all us robotic folk on Friday, did we all just get the sudden urge to be lazy and not show up? Poor "S" I'm sure he was probably wondering what happened to everyone. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to see what happened when the next meeting comes up.
Feeling a little tired (I've cut back to only 1 cup of coffee for the day for the past 3days, yay, see I'm not addicted, I can stop anytime I want to.) I was disappointed this morning in my programming class, I failed my first mid term (for that class we're going to have 3, 1 grade will be dropped (the lowest) and the other two will combined in which the average will be our final mid term grade. ) I found out that there was only one "99" and the class average was about a "75," I'm below average, that hasn't happened to me in a while (I'm not saying that I'm above average, but at least average would have been more acceptable right about now.) Not only that, there are only 5 girls in the class, including myself, our professor announced that 4 of the 5 girls received grades over "90" that means that I'm the only girl that proves why not too many girls enter this type of field in the first place (most cases boys make better programmers) this sucks.
I have a goal now: By the next mid term I want the professor to say that all the girls are sticking it to the boys, I will learn to write programs, Sorry Jordan I know you say that I'm not a born programmer but that's no longer a concern of mine, I will learn how to program correctly! It's on now!!!
Oh yah, today I'm pissed off and on fire, so "Sam" don't even get me started with you, don't even think of commenting today. (Jordan and any other readers are more than welcome)
I'm done for today and I feel better now, hopefully no one will ruin this good feeling for me. Signing off!
Feeling a little tired (I've cut back to only 1 cup of coffee for the day for the past 3days, yay, see I'm not addicted, I can stop anytime I want to.) I was disappointed this morning in my programming class, I failed my first mid term (for that class we're going to have 3, 1 grade will be dropped (the lowest) and the other two will combined in which the average will be our final mid term grade. ) I found out that there was only one "99" and the class average was about a "75," I'm below average, that hasn't happened to me in a while (I'm not saying that I'm above average, but at least average would have been more acceptable right about now.) Not only that, there are only 5 girls in the class, including myself, our professor announced that 4 of the 5 girls received grades over "90" that means that I'm the only girl that proves why not too many girls enter this type of field in the first place (most cases boys make better programmers) this sucks.
I have a goal now: By the next mid term I want the professor to say that all the girls are sticking it to the boys, I will learn to write programs, Sorry Jordan I know you say that I'm not a born programmer but that's no longer a concern of mine, I will learn how to program correctly! It's on now!!!
Oh yah, today I'm pissed off and on fire, so "Sam" don't even get me started with you, don't even think of commenting today. (Jordan and any other readers are more than welcome)
I'm done for today and I feel better now, hopefully no one will ruin this good feeling for me. Signing off!
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