Ash Wednesday & true love

Today was Ash Wendnesday, the day where Catholics take time to repent, get there cross shaped ashes on there forehead, and give up something they really like for 40 day. 40 days until Easter when Jesus arose.
- I don't have anything against Ash Wednesday or the people that follow it however I do have one thing that makes me feel alittle uneasy about it; I really don't like the stares I get from the people with ashes, I see them looking at me as if they see me as a sinner just because I don't the ash cross on my forehead. I'm not a Christian-Catholic, I'm Christian-Christian, we don't have Lint and so we don't get ashes. Really I personally don't have a problem with it I just don't see the point in asking for forgiveness and a chance to repent on just one specific day? I suppose there must be a reason but I'm just not familar with the Catholic beliefs. I wanted to wore a Christian rock band T-shirt to show my Christianaty and you know what, I didn't get those weird stares today.
- So today was just another day for me to awake and say "Good morning God, Good morning Jesus", and smile as the morning light shown through my window. Just another glorious day, a new day, better day (I could feel it) I was right. Lately the past few days I have not been feeling myself, they were not my best days but today was wonderful, I truly felt God's blessing today.
- I started out my day feeling refreshed and well rested. Joy, happiness, hope, and love feeled my heart. I felt so great today that I even got some exercise in using my dance game I have at home after a nice hardy breakfast (I can't start my days off without it anymore, so I thank God that I've been blessed with the time and Jordan's influence to have breakfast every morning.) I had hot tea to relax me, water, and Gaterade to replenish after, a small lunch and a nice healthy dinner prepared using a healthy cook book I purchased about a week ago. This was my second dinner from that book and they were both delious and very healthy. We had been eating out a lot and I really got tired of the fast food junk so I tired eating salads and then I thought,"Why not eat at home as we use to", my mother is a great cook and taught us to eat our veggies and now I actually crave them. I think my mom really just hasn't been in the mood to cook so that's why I decided to step up, I would watch her cook but she wouldn't let me help. Now that I'm older I can do the cooking myself and really there's nothing to it all you have to do is add the right spices to it for the flavor to be just right. I love cooking, I already have the next three breakfast and dinners planned (lunch is still a mystery) but they are healthy, filling, and gooooood. :) I plann to keep up with my health, not as a new year resolution (I didn't make any) but as something good I can do for myself to better myself.
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JoJo is my little dog, he is so adorable. He was laying on my lap for a while falling asleep, as you could imagine it starting hurt just alittle so I made an adjustment. He then lay with my arm as a support, one paw on my stomatche and the other on my rist as if they were his arm rest, his head laying back on my arm. It looked like he were lay on a lazy boy with his eyes closed and a smirk on his tiny face, he was like a prince sitting on his throne. I just watched him mainly because he looked both funny and cute at the same time; but mostly I couldn't believe how tiny he was in my arms. He appears so helpless yet trusting, just one squeeze is all it could take to ruin his perfect serenty but he knew I wouldn't disrupt that, I joined him in closing my eyes also trusting that he wouldn't just jump up on me or bite me. No... we were harmonious together, It was a wonderful feeling.
As strange as it may sound: It remind me of being with Jordan. We have those moments all the time with each other. We let our gaurd down and trust in each other. :) It's really a wonderful feeling, never before had I felt this way, not one other soul has made me feel so trusting, so safe. I love the feeling. It fills me with a calm, I could be in Jordan's arms forever and I wouldn't mind, I wouldn't mind at all. I know everything happens for a reason, I think God has sent me Jordan to show me what really love is suppose to feel like, I know I said I was in love once before but I know now that couldn't even begin to compare with the love Jordan and I share. Looking back I think of the love Jordan and I share would have been unimaginable, I had to exeperience it to know the possibilities. If a love like this with another person exist on earth.., I could only imagine the love that awaites in heaven, I could only imagine the eternal love God has for us all and I thank God for Jordan. He has shown me so much but, Jordan, of all, I treasure our love. Thank Jordan, for loving me and allowing me to finally know love. I love you Jordan, fy394. :)