Hot girl..?

I never thought I would be saying this, but am I a hot girl? I've noticed that I've been getting more attention for strangers (more than I would like) but I was in denile thinking that it was all in my head or there must have been a prettier girl behind me. Man I feel weird about this topic, I still can't believe the attention I've been getting, it's all too... WEIRD! The only thing that I could think of is Jordan, it must be a glow I have from being with Jordan. Really that's when I started noticing the extra attention, after I came back from seeing Jordan over the Christmas Holiday.

Many people tell me that I look different, I sure feel different, I feel so happy and it's all because of Jordan. :) The last time I saw my friend Lucy she told me that I looked different, she said she knew why- I'm in love was her reasoning. I've been in love with Jordan so long but something about the trip just brought us closer and made us love each other even more- we didn't even know that was possible.

I feel more confident not and I've been trying new things and do more things for myself. I love doing things for myself, I don't think my mom likes it because she wants me to always be around. I think it scares her to think of me leaving home, I do everything she asks me to - I'm the only one. She always talks and cries to me about things going on and if I leave who will she have? My little sister doesn't understand what's going on, I don't really want her to and neither does my mom.

Even my mom's been looking at me differently like she knows something. When I first came back she was mad at me for a while, she said I left them with no warning. I guess a month isn't enough warning according to her, really I think she thought I wasn't going to leave. I day she told me," Well if you want to go then go I'm not going to stop you, I don't care." I don't care, that hurt me some much and she had no idea just how much; at that moment was when I decided to go. If she didn't care why stay when there's someone that does care waiting for me? I needed to leave and I'm glad that I did. :)

Now I feel better, I'm more rested and look better and apparently I'm hot. My ex before "R" is trying to get back with me, he's never stopped but he gotten more annoying asking my mom and step dad if he could date me. They didn't know I was with him before but they know I don't want to be with him now. It's the curse, waite a minute... maybe I was in denile. Maybe I have been hot I look the same to me sort of, I haven't lost or gained any weight, why does the curse happen? Could me being hot be part of it? It's still weird for me to think of myself as hot, to those who know me- am I?