Why parents should watch their kids at the store...

Sorry I didn't post yesterday, I have my love back so I can release directly to him. Jordan always makes me feel so much better, I love talking things out with him. We've been catching up on what we missed since we couldn't talk.

Let me first start by saying, "Boys will be boys."
I work in retail and I have seen a lot of crazy things that kids do while their parents shop. I've seen kids fall off of shelves, knock down entire displays which where just put up, and many more things. Today I saw two kid(boys) so bord they decided to play, what and how did they play you may ask? Well, I could see them off in the distance, they were probably between the ages of seven and nine. I saw one boy reach for a baseball helmet (the only one left) so I guess the other boy wanted something on his head, his choice? He turned around and grabbed something white with straps, what was it..? I'll give you a hint, it was with the sports wear and sports equipment... if you can guess I would just like to say I never knew that what a jock strap look like until today, strapped to the little boys head. I was shocked that their parents weren't around to see them and tell them why it's so wrong to up just anything on your head.

Oh yay, on a random note, I ate animal crackers the day before and yesterday. Something about writing the blog about animal crackers really made me crave them. I shared with my nephew and at least I eat the head first to put the animal out of it's misery, he eat the feet one by one while making the animals noises to match. I was just giving him random animals and all of a sudden he tells me," Look, I got happy feet." It was a penguin so I asked if he was going to bite his little head off, he told me," No, I'll eat his feet first so he can stop dancing." The crazy things that come out of kids mouths, I thought I was evil, he's worst! He makes his poor little animals die a slow and painful death. CRUNCH!

Speak no more, so tired...

I woke up an hour before work, (late) I didn't want to get out of bed because was so tired. By the time I actually got up there were about forty minuets, I didn't iron my clothes (I didn't even know what to wear) I found clothes, ironed them, dressed, brush my teeth, wash my face, feed my dog, and cleaned up after him. No time for a breakfast energy boost, I grabbed a soda and a mini muffin (not enough) I was so tired at work, I just couldn't stop yawning. Why was I so tired? Well if you read my blog from yesterday you would know that it was late enough when I posted but then I typed out a letter, exercised (10mins. a day), rearranged some of my books on my new shelf, and took a shower. You would think I would be so tired, tired enough to just knock out, I was but I didn't. I tried to cry in the shower but it always just relaxes me so I couldn't, I really needed to cry, bad. So after my shower I laid in bed thinking of the main character Melinda in my book, "Speak," big mistake! I couldn't cry and it only hurt more, I was so tired but I couldn't sleep I had no other choice: I started reading the book. I was almost done, so close to the end, the story was at the climax I could stop! About an hour later I finished the book, 3:38am when I looked at the time. Bad news: I didn't get enough sleep. Good news: I bawled like I knew the character personally, I cried and it felt so good, I felt so good. Closure at last!

Through all this I still thought of Jordan, I miss Jordan so much, it Tuesday night so his plane should be returning him home soon, and he promised he would call as soon as he was home, YAY!!! I can't wait to hear him voice again, I love the sound of his voice, I him. I love Jordan so much! Thisssss much! (arm stretched out as wide as they possible could) I know, I'm such a dork, oh well I don't care. :)

Well I'm going to try to go to sleep early, Jordan usually helps, over the phone he drags me top my bed, I don't know how he does it but he does, I love him. :) I think I need a not-so intense book this time around, hopefully I will choose one that won't drive me crazy again. JORDAN! he just called, he's riding home from the airport, he'll call me when he's back home! YAY!!!! I'm so happy! Got to go, he should be home soon.

"Speak" :'(

As you may have noticed I didn't blog yesterday, I wanted to but I just didn't find the time. I had to distract myself so I did rearrange some of my stuff as I said then I went shopping with my mom. I'm still so proud of myself because I've kept up with my rule that I would only buy things that I need, I serious needed a bookshelf so I bought on among a few other items. I knew I needed one but I really didn't know how much I needed the bookshelf until I started putting I my books on it. It filled up fast but it looks so good and organized, I love it! Still not as much Jordan, though, I would still leave it behind for him but at least I can enjoy being in there for now. (my dog loves it too, he just loves the way he has him own area set up with plenty of roaming space, Freedom!)

The new book, "Speak," is really getting to me. Sadly I was right about my guess, I hate being right because that means I can see the signs. I wanted to cry as I read the big secrete but I couldn't I had to hold it in so I feel very sad. I still want to cry but I can't just yet, not until I'm in the safety of my room. I needed to write a letter and blog before I could take my late night shower (I switched to nights it's easier to sleep) I have to work in the morning so I should probably hurry up.

I just can't believe the impact a book could have on my life, I really picked some good books I can't wait to read my final pick then I'll have to buy some more, good thing my shelf is big enough with an extra shelf still! :) I can't wait to go to my room and cry it all out, I always feel so much better after a good cry. I really need to cry, I can feel a knot of emotions in my chest waiting to let lose. I really miss Jordan, I need a hug, not just any hug, a hug from my love. :( There's something about being with Jordan, we fit perfect, it just feels so right. I miss that feeling, I need that feeling right now. One more day, tomorrow night I can talk to my love, still one night too long. :'(

Jordan withdraw :(

It's not the same. :( Nothing feels the same without my love, Jordan. I worked today and it really sucks not to have someone to talk to about my day, I can't talk to my mom about it, the sad thing is I've become so desperate I've actually tried but she's no help. I want to cry. Things are getting worst, I'm stressing out too much and I won't have that going on in my life when I go back to school. I mean, I know I might have some stress when I'm back in school but even school never got to me this bad, I'm a NERD! I love school! I can't wait to go back! Yay, school! I feel a little better now thinking of my escape from home and work.

Actually I don't really mind being at home so much my room is now improved big time and I love spending time playing with my little dog. My friend "Ceci" actually compliment me on how oragnized it is in there, if anything it's improved even more since her visit. I still have things I want to get rid of but I'm glad that everything has a place and I keep it in that place. It feels kind of weird not having anything to do to my room so I might just start re-arranging my furniture again, maybe, I don't know. I've still been reading the new book, "Speak," it's getting better and better!

To escape my Jordan withdraw I have turned blogging, tea and, ice cream (not at the same time) throughout my day. It helps to relax me and calm my nerves which I so need right now. I miss talking to Jordan I can't wait until he gets back from vacation and we can talk again, he's my lifesaver! I don't know what I would do without him, I just have to keep counting down, only three more days, yay. :( That's still three days too long for us. I miss him like crazy. :(

Prooves and Animal Crackers

I've been thinking about this book I read a while back, "The Last Book in the Universe," I can't seem to get it out of my head and it's driving me crazy. I can't believe how much of an impact that book had on my life. Through out the book I imagined every detail described and tried to relate it with the world around me. It takes place in the future and it makes our time look really good, the book kind of makes you appreciate what we have now because you never know when it could all be taken away. Well yesterday we were driving from downtown heading to my brother's work and there are a few incomplete building structures along the way; it was really weird, all of a sudden I was pulled into the story. I could see the world as it was described in the book and I didn't hear or see anything going on around me, in my head the sky turned a grayish-red with rubble and metal on the ground below. I could see the main characters standing in the rubble: Spaz, Wrider, Little face (Chox), the latch leader- Billy, and the Proove- Layana. Before I knew it we were pulled up to my brother work place and I had the image of Red world in my head before I knew it just started talking about the book to my mom. This isn't the first time it happened either and it's sort of freaking me out, I just finished another book,"Talk to the Hand," after "The Last Book in the Universe" and it didn't catch my attention as much. Now I'm reading another book called "Speak" just like the "TLBIU" I'm getting pulled into the story, it's serious with some everyday humor and a big secrete which I'm already guessing (I always do that when I get into a book) I can see the characters but for some reason it always comes back to the Prooves. Why? I have no idea why I keep imagining these things but it's really weird for me and almost uncontrollable. Maybe I should change the subject...

Ha, Ha! Jordan should appreciate this one, other than Prooves I've been thinking about animal crackers. They're haunting me! The day before I was talking to Jordan after work and I was eat animal crackers. Yep, biting the heads off one by one. Elephant, crunch! Awww, cute little little penguin, crunch, crunch, crunch! Jordan felt sorry for the poor helpless little animal. Oh well that their fault for not being able to fly. Ha, ha, ha! I felt like a little kid playing with their food, I mean what kid hasn't? A kid or an evil giant crunching away at the tiny little animals. Man I want some more animal crackers! Mmmm... animal crackers....

I miss Jordan. He gone right now and I miss him, last night I fell asleep for the first time without talking to him on the phone saying how much we love each other. It felt kind of weird falling asleep without telling Jordan goodnight. :( I ended up saying, "Goodnight Jordan I love you," in the darkness of my room. It wasn't the same. (sigh) I miss Jordan.