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I really don't know what I'm going to do about Jordan. I want to think that its possible for us to be together someday in the future but I'm not sure, what if I'm just getting my hopes up for nothing. I'm scared about what is going to happen if we never get to meet again. I don't know, I'm not sure if my heart can handle anymore heartache. I want someone around that I can hold and to be able to know that I can count on them to always be there for me when I need them to be. With Jordan I know that he loves me and I know that I really love him too but lately I've been really doubting any hope for the future as far as Jordan and I are concerned. I don't know what to do anymore... (sigh) it almost seems pointless to continue.